Oh my lord it’s quiet here. You know that still noise when you can hear the clock ticking and the fridge whirring? Yep that. You see all of my little people are off being exactly where they should be and I am home alone. I’ve dropped two at school and one at kinder and returned home to my ticking whirring house. I’ve looked forward to this moment. Through the years of nappies, noises and sleepless nights I often thought silently to myself that this time would come. And today it has.
I’m not sure how I feel yet. I know part of my over emotional being is shedding a tear for an entire time in my life that has passed – never to return. I look at other people’s babies and their deliciousness captures my heart instantly. But deep down I know my time in that world has ended. It’s time to walk forward and embark on life with growing children – one which returns my focus a little more to myself. And that’s exciting.
I’ve missed time alone. When I’m alone my soul restores itself and I feel at harmony with the world. Don’t get me wrong I love being with others (especially my kids) but if it was up to me I’d always have a few hours, every day, of quality alone time. Time to let my thoughts roam free as I potter around my home. To write, read, clean and organise without distraction or interruption. That’s my happy place. That’s where I am right now.
So today is for me. I deserve it. Eight and a half years of parenting babies, toddlers and pre-schoolers has been awesome. Different to what I expected way back then, but nonetheless awesome. I’ve stretched and grown and come to know a type of love you can only ever learn through your children. I’m looking forward to seeing what life holds in store for us all over coming years, but right now I’m enjoying restoring my soul and just being me in my ticking whirring home.
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The whole of over lives are scary when you break it down and look how fast we move from one phase to another buy you just have to enjoy all of them!
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So very well deserved sweet Caz. Enjoy every precious quiet moment lol xx
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It’s a strange feeling, isn’t it? My two little ones used to go to their Grandma’s house for one afternoon a week (back in Adelaide), & it was just what I needed to recharge & come back refreshed. Amazing what some quiet time can do! Enjoy.
aaahhh Sanity time
I get 2.5 hours on a Friday now
I go for a long walk and read a book. As I have to drive a fair way to take my daughter to her kinder. So I hang around … but its still time for me .. without the needs of others.
This is still another 4 years away for me, but No.1 has just started school – although life is just going to be busier as my three grow. I’m happy for you and in a bittersweet way can’t wait for it myself . Emily
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It will go quick Emily – of that I’m sure. And yes it does get busier – especially when they start more after school activities too. Thanks so much for visiting
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So excited for you, Mama Caz!
Well done on doing an amazing job the past 8 years! But here’s to the future and wonderful “me” times ahead! xxx
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It’s pretty amazing – once you let go of the sadness of a stage being over. Hope all is wonderful with you and the twins.
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You’ve explored this beautifully Caz and I hope you get to fill that well-deserved you time with lots of fun grown up things xx
Thank-you Shari. I hope so too!!
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Beautiful post Caz, really heartfelt. I can’t imagine the feeling of having both boys at school, it has taken a little getting used to the difference of noise in the house since Angus started school… though it is kinda nice too. Definitely time for you to enjoy a little bit of yourself again xo
Thank-you Julie
Every change is huge hey. I find it harder with only one at home – because they depend on you so much more for company. Hope Angus is loving his start to school life.
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That’s beautiful Caz. Enjoy that peaceful time. I can’t imagine my world that quiet just yet but I am certain that I too, will both cherish it and be sad when the time comes!
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So true Angela
It’s bitter sweet – but such is life hey 
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You do deserve it. Enjoy lovely x
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Enjoy my friend
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There’s a lot to be said for a few hours of quiet time for yourself each day ! When K was little for me my time was in the bath with a book and, unless the house was burning down, I was NOT to be disturbed. I was a better wife and mom and I could do everything so much better after being able to re-charge myself that way.
Enjoy every minute of it !
Have the best day !
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I totally agree with you!!
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Congratulations on finally getting some YOU time. Enjoy, it is well deserved.
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Thanks lovely